you want this love song, it's all for you

Help me
I think Im falling
In love again
When I get that crazy feeling, I know
Im in trouble again
Im in trouble
cause youre a rambler and a gambler
And a sweet-talking-ladies man
And you love your lovin
But not like you love your freedom

Help me
I think Im falling
In love too fast
Its got me hoping for the future
And worrying about the past
cause Ive seen some hot hot blazes
Come down to smoke and ash
We love our lovin
But not like we love our freedom

Didnt it feel good
We were sitting there talking
Or lying there not talking
Didnt it feel good
You dance with the lady
With the hole in her stocking
Didnt it feel good
Didnt it feel good

Help me
I think Im falling
In love with you
Are you going to let me go there by myself
Thats such a lonely thing to do
Both of us flirting around
Flirting and flirting
Hurting too
We love our lovin
But not like we love our freedom

Hm. In fact, my sister told me two days ago that I was even a prisoner of my own freedom, to which she is right...my situation is uniquely free. In fact, that's why I was so scared the other day. I forgot how much I love being free. Sometimes I limit myself just to make it easier.
Here's the key...you have to do what you want. you know where it is...it's in your gut. Responsibilities fall usually in the right places when you do what you want, no matter how dangerous it might seem.
As soon as I made the decision I was freaked out to make, it all fell into place. And I was happier than I have been in a long time. On the eve of major change...it feels familiar. I like it.

all because of a good night and an even better morning.

I am completely grateful for every single second of that moment...whether all these emotions are all in my head or not... because now my life is of an optimistic point of view...and now I am reminded to believe the Universe provides endlessly to those who allow it to provide for them.

and I want everything. Everything good. Love, freedom, relationships, mountains, lakes..everything. somebody i can love as much as my freedom, or more ideally, my compatible soul's idea of freedom may be the same as mine.
I just have to accept that this change is just another part of my journey....a stepping stone to whatever awesomeness is in store for me.

sheesh. it took me awhile. I have been musing and been writing about this song for two nights now. In fact this is my second draft...and I still think I am not saying everything I want to. There's so much...and i am thinking way too much about it.
but I can't stop thinking about it.
Sigh. Just listen.